Looking back…
I can hardly believe this week in paradise is coming to it’s end and it’s time to head home already. Even more so, I can hardly believe that I even had the opportunity to SPEND a week in paradise…
When the plane landed last Monday on Provo island I had tears in my eyes…I was just awestruck at the natural beauty of this place, unlike anything I had seen before. I’ve never been to an island before–this was my first taste of turquoise waters and sugary-sand beaches. It really is just like what you picture when you see the travel brochures. I made sure to remind myself all week of that feeling I had when the plane touched down–to remain humbled by the beautiful gift of even being here.
It’s so easy to get caught up in every little thing when you live a busy life. By the second day here, even Darryl was planning our NEXT vacation. But living in the “now”…enjoying what’s upon me, not in front of me, is how I prefer to operate. I would hope that this philosophy would help me beat my anxiety…but so far no luck. Yes, I’m humble and thankful for every breath I take, but I still can’t stop my mind from racing.
So tomorrow we pack our things and head back to JFK airport where we’ll (hopefully) be greeted by my brother or my dad…or both maybe! Even though it’s just been a week, I feel like we’ve been away for a good long time and I don’t feel we’ve missed out on anything. We set out to completely unwind and I do believe we’ve succeeded!
I can’t deny that my anxiety level is probably a 9 out of a 10 right now…Darryl always tries to alleviate my worries by telling me that i don’t have to “do” whatever it is I’m worrying about. Today it was eating…we ran into another couple vacationing here and the wife said she got sick after eating in the pool restaurant at our place. So of course, now I’m in a panic about eating, or really NOT eating because we’re getting on the plane tomorrow! He says “just don’t eat”. But that’s not enough for me–because even I don’t eat, I’ll have to worry about HIM eating. Even though, in reality the woman probably just had too much sun and didn’t feel well. And now, I’m a little embarassed that you have gotten such an intimate look at the little devil that lives in my brain.
I’ll touch base with you tomorrow on land, to let you know that I survived…geez, I got through a whole week, why does it have to chase me now?
3 Responses to “Looking back…”
Comment from Tracy
Time April 21, 2008 at 5:15 am
Sounds like a beautiful holiday & it’s great that you were able to enjoy it & relax for the most part 
That’s an awesome photo!
Comment from KARIN SAMPOGNA
Time April 21, 2008 at 8:25 pm
AND NOW YOU ARE HOME -GOOD – YOU GUYS LOOK GREAT-
Comment from KARIN SAMPOGNA
Time April 21, 2008 at 12:43 am
OK – KICK YOURSELF IN THE BUTT AND TELL YOURSELF DON’T BE RIDICULOUS – ALL WILL BE FINE – LET THE SUN SHINE DOWN ON YOUR MIND , AND FEEL THE WAVES WASH OVER YOU , AND RELAX- SEE YOU SOON – XOXO